I'm a natural.peabody!!

With a natural clang,i go about the day with a buzz in my ear of a small boy that needs a home,of course.......i will take him in.
I offer to the fact and discuss with troy quite frequently that i would love to eventually become a foster mum.
This is years in the making,a natural who enjoys children and would do anything for them.
Everyday there is clatter upon my floors and no less of a count of 5-8 children bustling their body's through my home.
Often my kitchen is over cleaned because i have no where to sit....children on the computer,on the couches and .....all over.
The conclusion is i will never have white furniture or carpet's and i do dream of all white.
Sure there it is the fact that i will never have more children....i feel incomplete,normally i would have had five children had two not died,would i feel complete had they didn't?
Quite sure not.
Non the less,my heart still remains open..is still in acceptance and willing to love,even a child that is not mine,but for a child i could perhaps call....mine.