Soooo...it's been a while!!

It almost seems as though my days are becoming more hectic as i see that i'm not blogging as much as i used to!!
Between working,taking care of children and animals i think much of my time is consumed.
Let's do some updating.
Dakota my oldest child will be 16 in may,
Shaniya,my oldest daughter will be 13 in july,
Mikiya will be 6 in april.
Me...just had my 35th birthday and simply not really impressed by the whole age thingy.
We have...Trixie(old english bulldog)
Tonka(miniature pinchser)
Baby(himalayan)
Coco(ragdoll)
Slurpee(vietnamese pot belly pig)
and the girls each have a hamster.
So about having my hands full...............

On the other hand i think busy is good ,it stops my brain from wandering into dangerous territory,it stops me from reading into things that i maybe sometimes shouldnt.
My family has been through alot in the last few years and really it hasn't gotten much better but i really cant say that it's gotten worse,mikiya's health continues to sit on the edge,she will be turning 6 years old and just weighed in at 32 lbs,she had 2 major infections this year and has struggled with food more then i have ever seen before,normally she maintanes her weight until now she has begun to lose.
Shaniya was diagnosed with liver disease this year and has to watch her food intake and has dealt with things so good,she has managed to change her diet and lose 30lbs so far,dakota remains healthy and is currently looking for his first job so that he will be able to purchase a car,he doen't know that mom and dad will be giving a helping hand in that department,the rest of us have remained healthy.
So that was a quick update and now im to tired to type!!

Lets get back on track!!

Mikiya just celebrated her 5th birthday!!!

We sure have had many trials and much error,however looking back seems as though it was a piece of cake.
Every year that mikiya grows older gives us better chances,gives us more hope!
I can honestly say that i wouldnt have done it any other way,i have no regrets.

In the wee hours of yesterday morning (1:30am) my grandmother @ 76 yrs old was exsperiencing chest pains that woke her from a sound sleep,she was able to make it too the kitchen and take 2 aspirin,then over to the phone,she called my mother and told her that she was in trouble.
My mother picked her up and took her to the E.R.
She was admitted right away and was in deed facing heart attack.
From we understand today she is awaiting a bed in hamilton for angioplasty,or maybe even a pacemaker.
From what i understand about this in medical terms is that her S.A node is dysfunctional.
Her heart cannot maintain a normal rythym.
I spent the day with her today and even though her spirits are well she was distand at times in thought.
She is high risk at the moment for a massive heart attack,when asked about her options she signed a D.N.R.....DO NOT RESESITATE.
So the doctor says ...if you have a heart attack,we will just let you go,she answered ,yup!
As much as her answer upset me,it still bothered me to know that she is just giving up,i understand what she is saying as well,and wanting to die with dignity.
I find it funny how you end up looking back and wondering if you gave that person enough,was i the grandaughter that she was proud of...i feel i was,but i think with grandparents you dont get enough time.
I only had one set of grandparents,my grandfather passed away when i was 15 and that was hard,but i think this is going to be harder.

I'm not sure through all this fighting if i have achieved anything,i mean i won by getting mikiya in school,but how much schooling does she actually attend...well really,not much.
She started school on september 15th without one person asking about taxes.
However there hasn't been a day that she has been sympton free,the average healthy child gets sick every 14-28 days,mikiya is sick again before she has fought off the last one.
She is a resiliant child with an amazing attitude,whom says she is sick all the time because i accepted her that way...remember the fight mommy...remember?

Ok so maybe this child has heard too much and is really following in her mothers foot steps..i guess its true the apple really doesn't fall far from the tree.

We have recently run into new developements with mikiya's health,the doctors fear that with her being so sick recently and attenting school that mikiya is right on the verge of her lungs collapsing again,this almost killed her two years ago.
The doctor has ordered that we have a compressor at home,along with the medication that goes in the machine,it will be portable and easy for her to carry around.