I'm trying to post more and keep up the beat with our lives,if i repeat something that i have posted before,please forgive me as i seem to be brain dead lately.

A few months ago when we really became active in seeking new doctors we came across a few diagnosis that were pretty far fetched and some that hit really close to home!

After seeing an orthopedic specialist we recieved a diagnosis of rheumatoid arthritis,thus being true and a diagnosis that we were looking for,i mean don't get mewrong,i don't want her to have that but reality is........she has it!

Second came hyper syndrome.....pne i didn't want,hyper syndrome is a condition well like the curious case of benjamin button,but the oposite,where the body is born young and grows old before it's time,so mikiya being three was equal to her actually being some late 40's to early 50's,and most of her symptoms fit except the fact that in order to get a full diagnosis,upon testing you have to score a number of 23,mikiya scored a 21,close...very close but not close enough and trust me that couple of digits makes a huge difference.

Then came leujemia......the dreaded words of.....Mrs.Murdock,mikiya has cancer!!
Let's talk about jaw dropping,i cried for days ,weeks!

After some research we had found out that migrating rhuematoid arthritis can mock leukemia.....now why don't doctors tell people this?
We were seeking the best medical,and we also sought alternative medicine and took our child to see a medicine man.

Now i'm not a sceptic and i'am married to a native and have native children and i 'am under the impression that my child has cancer.
Soooo....we go to many appointments and this man is sure that he can sure my child,when all is said and done we take mikiya back to be checked and to see where her platlets are at this point....and bam,the dropped.

Was it themedicine man that claimed he could cure my daughter,the magic of god...the creator,or perhaps sheer hope...i'm gunna go with medical nuttiness!!

Now onto better things here....happier things.

I can't ask for a better life,i have my children,i have mikiya!!
And.....i have 7 puppy's!
Yup...seven,my sadie and my tiny,one being a pug and the other a chihuahua...hooked up!....literally,58 days later in the wee hours of the morning troy awoke me and said sadie was having her pups on my newly carpeted living room floor.

So,now i have ten dogs in my house,my living room now smells like a barn and the pups whom i'am ever so attached too will be ready for new homes come xmas eve...YAY!

January...tiny will be fixed....march,sadie will be fixed.
Mikiya wants to keep a puppy all for herself,which will bring our total to four keepers...and i sadly will be THE CRAZY DOG LADY.....that lives down the street.

I think i'am out of my mind crazy....3 kids..all the dogs and pups,a full time job...a landlord...ahhhh!!!

Tomorrow we are heading to Mac once again to see a respirologist,my car is broken so we will be travelling with my dad.....this ought to be entertaing..frusterating...uhhh dunno.

They had better keep up with me!!!

It's been a busy five months,running all over following schedules and doctors appointments,still running dog rescue and now a landlord of a 42 unit townhouse complex.
I'm a sucker for my own punishment!
I have finally gotten a doctor to listen to my concerns and take me seriously,she found the heart problem that we are now watching.
We have also been to see a rhuematologist,are going to see a respirologist,and a cardiac specialist,an allergist as well.
Our appointments go far into late january and are usually weekly runs to McMaster.
We have not been back to see our local pediatrician.
Mikiya continues with pain in her limbs and we finally got a scrip for a pain killer,it's not something i really want to give her,but then again i can't watch her suffer either.
She continues to grow very well,weight gain is still slow but productive.

Mikiya will be 4 in four months,she doesn't look four,her hair is now down to her butt,the more i cut it the more it grows,the faster it grows.
She has done fantastic and i'am proud of her,i'am proud of my other two children as well.

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WOW,it's certainly been a while since i have given my two cents here,maybe that's for the better,but i have been a busy mom out on the prowl again.

By prowl i mean on the search for any doctor who will give a crap and not brush us off,we were brushed off by our own pediatrician who has recently turned 65 and has sudden memory loss,should he be a physician at this point...heavens no retire before i lose my mind.

A doctor that cannot remember whom he is speaking with let alone treating cannot be for the better.

He forgot who mikiya was even after we have been visiting every 28 days,he forgot about her medical history and what was going on.

After mikiya's lungs collapsed in march she just hasn't been right,her stamina has been lowered and she has had boughts of which i had assumed were apnea's,i discussed these issue's with him and he dissmissed them,i had asked about feet and their alignment and again dismissed.

I had become overcome with worry as mikiya would repeatadly stop breathing in her sleep and after me having to shake her to awaken her would she finally start breathing again.
I thought i would ask him about it one last time before i went above,and i did,again we were tossed to the side.

So i called McMaster Hospital where mikiya was born and i did just that,i went over his head,he wouldn't give me the referrals that i wanted and i told a pediatrician there just that.
I would learn after bitch fest 2009 that the doctor that i was speaking with was the professor that had taught our pediatrician,she was nowhere near impressed,she made it a point to call our pediatrician and asked as to why i was not being taken seriously,i don't know what his answer was but we did get an appointment at Mac,and when we did we finally got those referrals that were so desperatly needed.

So now we sit and wait to see a cardiologist-heart and lung specialist,a respiralogist and an orthapedic specialist.

You hear of these children that have issue's and they got to the doc's in hope of help,they don't get that help and then something goes awefully wrong and then those children die,i have refused mikiya to be a statistic evan before she was born and i will not give in now to doctor error.

It's 11 o'clock,do you know where your children are?

Tonight i have found myself CHILDLESS!!!

Dakota is in the U.S staying with one grandma for a few days,and my girls are at my mothers...wow...alone time!!

During my last blogger episode i wanted to mention and welcome a new preemie into the world,Chloe Hope was born @ 27 weeks,she is now nearly 3 weeks old and is growing and eating very well,it seems that chloe was the early product of just early labor,she was born early and small but has proven her strength and powerful will to live,she has not struggled through any preemie problems as of yet and is powering through strong,so tonight we are rooting for chloe.

Yesterday morning mikiya woke with a runny nose,by 11am she developed a cough,and at the end of that cough was a very distinctive sqeek.........RSV,today she awoke with still the snotty mucusy nose and nooooo squeek,how did the cards overturn?

I thought for sure today we would have been doing the usual and running back and fourth for some sort of treatment,hopefully all goes well.

Still yet this doesn't look good as on t uesday she has her 3yr hearing test,now those results ca n be altered if a child is sick,so i hope they take that into consideration.
I must admitt that i do hate any test that mikiya has to go for,they always seem to find something,her last hearing test was a repeat due to a cold.
At that test they said that they felt that she did have some difficulty hearing in her left ear,are you kidding me,the time before that it was her right ear,plain and simply put,mikiya is completely bored with these audiologists,she looks at them like you want me to do what,who cares about that elephant that lights up.
Mikiya has two older siblings so things are pretty much...as she would say are gay,yes new word...gay.
This morning at 4:30am,mikiya awoke to troy's alarm clock,she sat straight up,i looked at her and she says''that freaken drives me nutts''then she nudges troy and tells him to get out of bed.
HaHa she was right,shut the darn ting off and get out of bed...we need our beauty sleep daddy!!!