God grant me

May god grant me with the abilities to always be close to my children,to always be there to be able to feed and shelter and clothe my children.
I may not be rich,yet not poor,nor poverty stricken.
after the last two years rather then 12 years i have learned some of the most valuble lessons a mom can learn,was it really a lesson?Who knows.
I watch as a friend of mine is raising her 5 grand baby's,the youngest of 5 is a baby boy ,9months old and may not live long enough to see his 1st birthday.
He was born to a mother of substance abuse,including crystal meth,heroin,and cocaine.
Not only does he just have the use of only half a lung he is also has severe withdrawel from drugs.
He now has an unknown mass covering his already impaired lung and has hepatitas c,that is affecting his liver and kidney's.
Grandma has no job as she quit to raise the children,and cannot receive welfare,this is where life defeits you!!
She is fighting to not lose the children that mostly belong to differen't father's most wich are drug dealers and in jail.
This lady goes days without food just so that her grand kids eat,she is sooo not sellfish.